i have SO much to talk about and definitely not enough time!
i was super sick on monday - throwing up & everything. let it be known, there is such a thing has too much pepper (my throat wanted to die). TMI? sorry. i did learn some real lessons from being sick monday. i learned how much i love mom. there's nothing worse than being sick and sitting on the bathroom floor crying for your mom. i already appreciated her leaving home like this, but i really really appreciated her even more on monday. LOVE YOU MOM! i also learned that i'm human, i can't do it all and i'm not expected to. if i don't feel well, i have to sleep & let my body heal. if it means staying home during golden proselyting hours to eat a good meal instead of skipping dinner, then so be it. a lesson i learned the hard way. i'm so glad that i'm feeling better now, and i'm especially glad that all of my roomies took good care of me. i had to rest again yesterday during our shift at the VC, but i'm learning to be okay with that. it's okay to be sick and it's okay to need rest! i can't be 100% all day every day and heavenly father knows that.
i had an experience earlier last week where we were out searching for less active YSAs and not finding any of them home. i became frustrated and after sister mendenhall had prayed that they would be home i asked in doubt why we even prayed for such a thing when it never seems to happen. she was patient with me and said it was because that was the true desire of hearts, we truly hope that they are home and that we can invite them to the group. we walked to the house and knocked on the door... they were home. sometimes heavenly father shows me very quickly what lesson he wants me to learn. words and thoughts of faith are soooo important as a missionary and especially hard for me. time and time again i am learning that heavenly father hears and answers prayers.
we've recently had some really great lessons with some less actives. the spirit has been really strong and i've been able to see that even though i'm not teaching investigators, i am helping others grow closer to christ. during one of the lessons i learned something about feeling the spirit. i often feel like i'm not good enough or that i don't have the holy ghost directing me, but i now for a fact that i am good enough and i do have him with me. there are times when i am guided to share a specific story or experience, to share a specific movie, or to even change topics to something else. i know that means i am feeling the holy ghost in my life and he is directing me to better help the specific people i am talking with. just yesterday we met these awesome guys kevin & ariel at the VC. they had just walked in and wanted to know more. we were talking about the temple a little but i felt impressed (in a small and subtle way, just like the spirit works) to change the topic. we instead taught them about the restoration and book of mormon. because we had switched to that topic kevin was quick to ask if there was any literature he could read. as sis. mendenhall was reciting the first vision in my mind i was thinking that i should give them the joseph smith pamphlet. and then he asked for literature!!! amazing! we gave them both the JS pamphlet, and also one about temples. we even invited them to receive their own BOM and a visit from missionaries. it's unbelievable when some people are so quick to say yes to such invitations. heavenly father really does prepare the elect and send them to us. more and more i am coming to love the visitors center and i see what an honor it is to be serving there. i get to represent the temple and the blessings that come from an eternal family!!! i get to be the first contact that some people have with the church! that is truly an amazing honor. it's scary, super scary, but i'm learning to be more confident in myself. elder petramalo, one of the senior elders here, one time told me that he recognizes that within me - confidence. he sees that i am bold and and that i do have confidence. i just need to see that in myself. he even walked by one day and randomly said, "you're going to be a great mother some day" it was so random but also so neat because taylor had sent a letter to me that week, bryndy also, that had some of the same thoughts! heavenly father is so aware of us its' sooo amazing!
ahhh time to go and i still have so much to say! hopefully i have more time next week!
LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!
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